Epiphany on success.

I have wanted to be a leader for quite some time now, the sort of person that's a leader, that is. But now I think about it, I think I might be better at quietly working away without the credit, like Mary Portas, in Mary, Queen of Shops. I realise that she is a leader now, and that she is a perfectionist that knows how to do things and imposes that on others; but she's also taken a framework and worked within it in a creative way, and that's what I want to do. I also want to be as secure as she is in her own beliefs, and in her knowledge of what is right. I think she is incredibly cool.

Novelists as well, don't always have to be leaders. And I think I can be pushy at the right time; just not overbearing like some leaders are. I'd like to be a perfectionist; I am trying to be at the moment. I am in certain areas, or at least, I practise harsh jurisdiction on my body, people's sartorial choices (though these aren't in line with the norm; I abhor pastels and beige where others might an ill cut skirt), and other's actions and deeds; but rarely on standards. I'm no editor.

But this is something I can develop. Twenty one is no age to stop learning.