Ah, but he wouldn't do anything for me. I wonder sometimes if he's got a deep dark fetish that he won't tell me because he's so reluctant to divulge. I'm worried he won't like me anymore because I've got fatter over Christmas, as always happens when I go home, because I snack and eat my body weight in chocolate and crap. He says he doesn't like to comment on appearance, or judge on it, but he does notice it nevertheless, and I'm not standing much of a chance anyway.
Here are some good things about today
1. I managed to get my Dad a birthday present I know he wants.
2. I did some more of my essay, and it'll be simple to stick some more quotes in, synopsise and link together.
3. I know a bit about workhouses.
4. I got a phonecall from him late last night and I didn't find it hard to talk to him, like I usually do on the phone with people.
My brother said I had a phone voice today. I don't want to be the sort of person that has a particular voice just for the phone, I want to be me all the time.
He just said:
You do have self confident to a degree. You just work yourself up into weird frenzies of insecurity every so often for no seeming reason, but overall I'd say you were pretty confident.
They're contradictory.
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