Why I want to be thin.

I will firstly detail how thin I want to be; I would like to weigh 112 pounds. This is eight stones. I am five feet eight tall. I currently weigh 148 pounds, or ten and a half stone, the last time I checked. I tend to rely on measurements and the way my clothes fit. I would like to be a size six or eight as opposed to the ten or (usually) twelve I am at the moment.

Other people would probably say I would look sickly at this weight; that is their opinion. I want to weigh that much because:

1. I haven't got much of a chest. This may seem a strange reason to want to weigh less; the thing is, without a chest the rest of me looks disproportionate. I am a pear shape. My decollete is comparatively bony.

2. I am generally bony with a large bone structure, which makes flab ten times worse when it covers large bones; you just get large, as opposed to large bones. If I was thinner, I'd just look toned.

3. This follows on from the bone structure point; I'm manly and broad enough, I don't need to be fat to consolidate that image.

4. I'd rather appear sylph like than clumpy. That said, I never want to be one of those girls that whines about food; this is why everything I think about food is expressed here. I never speak to anyone about food, because I want to convey the image that calorie counting is incredibly disinteresting to me. I am no woolly knit wearer.

5. The adjective sepulchral can only apply to thin women.

6. I would feel more confident. A cliche, but how true it rings.

7. I don't want pockets of fat either side of my waistband. I want to discard that excess and throw it away; I do not live an excessive lifestyle, my approach is minimalist, I would prefer to be regarded as a conoisseur of art and people than one of food and sedentary activity. The first two fill me up.

8. People remark on slimness; my family notices, and worries. Strangers class you with the thin girls. I don't feel as if I should be asking permission to eat when they're all wanting me to anyway.

9. Clothes that I want to wear suit slim girls. High necks, armless short dresses and summer just round the corner.

10. I want that air of surprise. That isn't the right idiom. I mean, "yes, she beat me at arm wrestling though she doesn't look like she could lift a pin". That sort of thing.

There are more I can't think of now. I can reach these by exercising more. I will start to exercise three times a week. I will also eat five fruits and vegetables a day.