Thankyou.

I've been given so much but people just aren't bewitched. I haven't got the power to enchant, and maybe I should just think about doing something else entirely.

Then again, we're young. Don't peak too soon. Panic panic panic.

I like to walk alone. Come to me, comfort me. I suppose I fling off the edge because there is noone to comfort me.

I need to keep my head screwed on. It's so likely to go flying off when I'm surrounded with people that I admire, who can touch and call people love or honey or darling without thinking about it, because I think about things so very much that I couldn't possibly.

Thankyou India. Well, just thankyou thankyou. Because it was awesome, and I forgot to eat, and I learned more from those few days than any number of courses. Just be enthusiastic about what you're doing, be a perfectionist and people will follow. I just wish I was more out than in, or more in than out, or more something than this halfway space that I am. That noone particularly wants, and that's a truth in itself. Noone wants a halfway person. It's all or nothing in every arena and I'm always halfway.

I'm just not as good. So I will have to find ways of being.