Battle Royale mimics the real world.

I watched this film yesterday, and it was brilliant. It was beautifully done, despite the bad acting, and very visceral as well as having a dystopian undercurrent. I need to watch some more japanese films, not necessarily thriller- on the list are Spirited Away, the Ring and the Grudge.

But it mimics real life because this is what the working world is about; these past two weeks I tried work experience at a large publishing house and they all stamp on each other to get to the top. I spent much of the week stuffing envelopes. They've asked me back; doubtless they need another free envelope stuffer.

I also want to learn how to pole dance, not for the raunchiness because I think a pack of women wiggling about a pole is stomach-churningly embarrassing, but because I like acrobatics. Maybe I could sit out of the warm-ups, when they're trying and failing utterly to be charismatic and desirable.

I think I might send in some of my drawings to an illustrating agency, just to see how far I get. I wonder how many constitute a portfolio? I am going to stop putting constraints on myself and just go for things, like drama school. I will apply and see what happens. I won't tell anyone, because failure would then be consolidated.