One of my friends today remarked upon eating carbs before bed that it should never be done. I wondered if this was specifically for my own benefit. I also saw Amazing Grace; it's pretty good.
I ate
an apple (40)
3/4 of a houmous and chargrilled vegetable baguette (400)
tortellini (400)
tomatoes(20)
a banana (100)
some apricots (120)
a handful of sultanas (70)
more tomatoes (20)
two slices of toast and marmite (200)
1350- not as good as yesterday but not horrendous. It could have been worse.
Today I got some wonderful news, academically. I'm going to do a thesis, which is lovely. I got so excited that someone would have that much faith in the question I'm posing myself that I squeaked a little bit.
I sometimes wonder if one specific member of my friendship group is alright within herself. I feel that she has to always pretend to be having a wonderful time, even when she isn't, not even convincingly. I do this as well, but I do worry about her; I think she puts on a veneer of fun which wears thin and grates, and then feels she isn't close to people as she should be. It's nothing she's said, it's just the way she is. She tries to get boyfriends by going for them even if she isn't a hundred percent sure she likes them; and it's seldom successful. One of my other friends has a similar problem, though they're both attracted to completely different people; the first adores skinny rock men, the second the rugby bloke with his flash car. I think they both need someone else to tell them they're wonderful and are so intent on proving it that they can't escape that. I'm glad I don't have to kid myself I'm having fun; that would be exhausting. I'm also glad that I don't sustain relationships with people I dislike.
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