One of my friends is in a gay relationship- the one I spoke about a while ago- and she's freaked out about it. She doesn't want to tell people, but she has; she's very brave. I gave her a hug tonight, which is unlike me; I don't do physical affection, I don't want people to be able to put a finger (or more) on my flaws. But she was so relieved that I was on board- I can't believe she'd think I wouldn't be, or that I'd treat her differently. Anyway, she's fine, we're fine. Me and my other friends are checking if this girl she's going out with is good enough for her, as usual.

Back to the kalorien;

muesli (400)
soup and 1.5 slices of bread (260)
a chicken wrap (500)
muesli (100)

I might have gone a bit over, portion wise. I also ate two tangerines.

I am just like everyone else in that I want someone; but the last person I wanted most of all did not want me. I cannot have what I want, so I want what I cannot have. Wanting what I've got means that what I've got is not worth wanting. If someone wants me, why would they want me, because if they want someone as shit as me they must be truly shit. I never get what I want.

That's very applicable to me. It's from a dance thing I saw in Edinburgh, which was amazing.