OK. Boring, boring- I'm under 1200 today, so that's good.

My family is annoying me a little, but not for a reason, just because they're usually late, and they nag, but only about things I do wrong anyway, like driving. So really I'm just annoyed because I'm a brat.

I adore him more.

I saw him today, and he talks to me but I don't think he finds me as interesting as other people. It would usually be that I'm not pretty that would get me, but today I wasn't the ugliest, just the stupidest. No, I'm just... less amusing? I don't know, it's something about presence and integrity and wanting far too badly to please. Now I seem to just insult him because that's our language (we both agreed today that we find compliments discomforting).

Today he talked about constantly being perceived as gay. It's because he's clean and well-dressed and camp. I listed these for him; I didn't tell him that I want to bury my face in his clean clothes, and to get so close to him I can smell even better, and that every time he flourishes a hand I'm desperate to slip mine into it. We're friends, and friends don't say things like that. I say all of the tiny niggling bits and leave out the huge parts that are forcing those bits to the surface. I can't help being a complete drip about it.

I joined an acting society that does loads of improvisation games, it was excellent. I can make people laugh.

So here are three bad things about today

1. I didn't do any work
2. I didn't make any headway with him
3. I insulted my parents and they were late for me.

But here are the good things

1. My parents love me a lot.
2. I ate under 1200.
3. I made people properly laugh.