I am going to

Apply for a BBC course
And some theatre schools

The BBC before I go away on holiday, that's the 15th.

Send off my illustrations. It would be beyond amazing if they actually got anywhere.

Lose some weight. I hate feeling like this. I will lose weight by doing more exercise and eating smaller portions. I just don't need all that food, not at all. In the meantime, I will wear comfortable clothes, because wearing too tight ones makes me feel depressed and I don't move about as much.

I thought about her when I ran, and what she would think of me running, and wondered if she ever ran. I can't picture her running. Only in a funny way, she wasn't a sporty person, I don't think. She might be the sort of person that was really good at one sport, but never cared enough about it because she cares more about relevant things.

My Mum thinks I could be a runner. I do tend to athletic- broad shoulders, flat chest, substantial, tall, long stride. The fact is, though, that I haven't got the stamina or the skill- I run too much like a woman, I mean, overly feminine, flapping hands and turned out feet. I don't when I play netball, that's different because I've got purpose- I need the ball, or I need to defend- but just running I find really difficult. I probably could be good at it, but the effort required isn't worth the minimal pleasure I'd get from it.