I ate a lot today.

apple-40
pasta-400

cereals-300
1/2 a bagel-100
1/2 a croissant-100

940

2 sausages, some mash and some veg-400
6 chocolates-200
twix-280

So 1800. It could be worse, and it could be better. Tomorrow will be above count as well, because I'm planning on drinking.

You weren't in today, I don't know where you were. There was a bit of a weird atmosphere, I couldn't figure out what was going on, I didn't know what to do when I thought someone was being bullied and they don't really respect me... so I suppose I'll have to do more about it. I'll have to think properly. I feel like everyone knows how to do my job better than I do, even my Dad, who I've always regarded as something of an autistic savante. He's not meant to know people. I don't know people, and I certainly can't command them. Occasionally I can charm, but that's wearing thin in this job, where it's about personality, not charm. Charm's a veneer for those that don't know better, that haven't got real substance. I worry I don't know enough about people to be sure what I'm doing is right, and I worry what I'm doing is wrong, and I worry that even if I do make a move it'll screw up whatever everyone else is doing.