Actually I am happy at the moment.

I have a job which is enjoyable, though I worry about it a bit, whether I am doing the best. I had palpitations the other night, but that's OK. I have got a part in an amateur dramatic thing, and that makes me happyish, though they were going to offer me a bigger part but changed their minds.

Here are things I want in life:

1. A bit more independence and privacy. I could move out.

2. To lose some weight.

3. To go on a course, a drawing course.

Today I ate:

an apple-30
a cheese and salad sandwich-300
1/6th of a mars bar-50
a bowl of muesli with raisins and milk-370

OK, this all adds to 750. It is half past six. I plan to go and buy stationery, and to take my shoes back, maybe, and buy train tickets. I want to drink a smoothie, and possibly some tea. My stomach is aching a bit but I think that's down to the muesli onslaught. I've had three portions of fruit and vegetables, maybe four.

Then I ate:

a smoothie- 150
some apricots-50
a biscuit-60
soup-150
bread and houmous-200

600.

So all in all 1350, not too bad, though I haven't exercised as much as I'd have liked to today.

I am going to see my friend tomorrow, which will make me happier than I am currently.

And I am happy. I am currently watching Hairspray with my cool little sister, who becomes cooler and more beautiful and funnier by the day. It's good that I can just feel pride instead of the usual jealousy. I am envious of her work ethic and her cleverness, but I am not envious of her beauty or her popularity, which is good.